yes its past 2 am quell surprize. again, not wanting tomorrow to come – for a new day to start in my horrible job.

talking of… Dh got told he is in for a diciplinery on Friday. he phoned me at 9am when he recieved the letter waitin for him.

my first reaction was to tell him how bloody pissed off i am that e are in this situation again.

they did this in february if you remember

its workplace targeting thats what it is – he knows they have it in for him but he doesn’t look for another job

so instead of me being all suportive like i was last ime  – i think i said 2 well i’m a bit pissed off that we are here again” or something

which he later said was a big shock

emma enroled for a-levels

jacob enrols on friday for apprentivceship

still no word from teh BIL who has been promising an apprenticeship for 6 weeks.

v proud of them both.

helped dd tidy her bedroom – seriously ….imagine a shithole ..double it and multiply it by 79.  couldnt see carpet.

plate behind dessing table 4 bin bags.  its a tiny room!

i have no words – it’s done now.

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i have had this dream for ages of opening a cafe just cake and coffee. i have researched it for months and looked at the commercial property online.

i am a dreamer – i have many ideas and non come to fruition.

i kinda emotionally blackmailed dh to run over my business plan

he saw the potential profit and has really been for it ever since.

i have a partic premises in mind and have been to see it with an environmental health officer.

i have a course in food hygiene booked.

i have written a letter to the council asking if they have any premininary objections before i actually spend money  on an architect and putting in the planning application.

it all hinges on this.

i have a wholesales

and lots of family willing to work for free

ideally i could still work part time 2.5 days a week – the .5 fro home so i need to get shop cover for two day which i can do.

i am totally and utterly in love with the idea. DH is even more since this business at his work.

i have a name ‘Ginger Joe’s Coffee House’

i contacted a sign writer – he didn’t get back to me with a quote.

i have totally pictured the inside like its real.

we might get turned down becuase there are lots of other cafes ont he street – its where people go for a cafe  to sit outside in the sun with a drink.  but the council have a quota  apparently. so we have to wait.

i got offered another interview – but declined it .  i decided to totally run with the cafe thing and i have more change of going PT at my current place of employment than at a new place.

i have a work thing on saturday.

its windier than i have ever known it.

waffle

waffle

i have lost 20lbs on atkins. yay

i am v proud of myself.

some american college guys were taking the piss on poker at my profile pic.  for ages they called me every name that meant fat. i tried to laugh it off like i wasn’t bothered.

but its really hurt my feelings. stupid! i know

aunty rang about uncle – they have split up but she still goes round ( its complicated she has her own house always has done)  uncle is on self destruction path – well quell surprize – he has no-one – again …quell surprize

he is an alchy and now is smoking weed …again. be is the worst alchy. he is violent and loud and horrid.

he drink dials me.

aunty asked me to contact my cousin to tell her that her dad is in a bad way

so i did on FB – she doesn’t talk to me on fb in fact she hasnt contacted me for ages.

i miss nan