yay

dh resigned.

ds2 got an apprenticeship – only he is getting paid serious money not apprenticeship money.

dd is liking A-levels at college.

i still hate work

becuase of the dh situation the cafe idea on the back burner

making dh paint the house – as he has shit all else to do – he just come back from cunting B&Q

how highly excellent is that!

yes its past 2 am quell surprize. again, not wanting tomorrow to come – for a new day to start in my horrible job.

talking of… Dh got told he is in for a diciplinery on Friday. he phoned me at 9am when he recieved the letter waitin for him.

my first reaction was to tell him how bloody pissed off i am that e are in this situation again.

they did this in february if you remember

its workplace targeting thats what it is – he knows they have it in for him but he doesn’t look for another job

so instead of me being all suportive like i was last ime  – i think i said 2 well i’m a bit pissed off that we are here again” or something

which he later said was a big shock

emma enroled for a-levels

jacob enrols on friday for apprentivceship

still no word from teh BIL who has been promising an apprenticeship for 6 weeks.

v proud of them both.

helped dd tidy her bedroom – seriously ….imagine a shithole ..double it and multiply it by 79.  couldnt see carpet.

plate behind dessing table 4 bin bags.  its a tiny room!

i have no words – it’s done now.

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i have had this dream for ages of opening a cafe just cake and coffee. i have researched it for months and looked at the commercial property online.

i am a dreamer – i have many ideas and non come to fruition.

i kinda emotionally blackmailed dh to run over my business plan

he saw the potential profit and has really been for it ever since.

i have a partic premises in mind and have been to see it with an environmental health officer.

i have a course in food hygiene booked.

i have written a letter to the council asking if they have any premininary objections before i actually spend money  on an architect and putting in the planning application.

it all hinges on this.

i have a wholesales

and lots of family willing to work for free

ideally i could still work part time 2.5 days a week – the .5 fro home so i need to get shop cover for two day which i can do.

i am totally and utterly in love with the idea. DH is even more since this business at his work.

i have a name ‘Ginger Joe’s Coffee House’

i contacted a sign writer – he didn’t get back to me with a quote.

i have totally pictured the inside like its real.

we might get turned down becuase there are lots of other cafes ont he street – its where people go for a cafe  to sit outside in the sun with a drink.  but the council have a quota  apparently. so we have to wait.

i got offered another interview – but declined it .  i decided to totally run with the cafe thing and i have more change of going PT at my current place of employment than at a new place.

i have a work thing on saturday.

its windier than i have ever known it.

waffle

waffle

i have lost 20lbs on atkins. yay

i am v proud of myself.

some american college guys were taking the piss on poker at my profile pic.  for ages they called me every name that meant fat. i tried to laugh it off like i wasn’t bothered.

but its really hurt my feelings. stupid! i know

aunty rang about uncle – they have split up but she still goes round ( its complicated she has her own house always has done)  uncle is on self destruction path – well quell surprize – he has no-one – again …quell surprize

he is an alchy and now is smoking weed …again. be is the worst alchy. he is violent and loud and horrid.

he drink dials me.

aunty asked me to contact my cousin to tell her that her dad is in a bad way

so i did on FB – she doesn’t talk to me on fb in fact she hasnt contacted me for ages.

i miss nan

Didn’t get a job i applied for <meh> slightly sad but not overly – its not the job itself – its the fact that i have to stay where i am that saddens me. I hate it.

Ez going to a literature fstival with her friend and parents this weekend.  on the second day everyone dresses up as an animal.  She wanted to be  (Northern) Monkey – but i only got wind of this yesterday and so i had planned to spend this evening sewing a tail and ears. to cut up a t-shirt and scarf, to get the copper wiring out of some flex of an appliance we don’t use.  But…we just went shopping, i rode into town, her boss gave her an hour off, we walked into Claires accessories and there it was – ladybird wings, headband thingy and a wand (!) she also bought a minature ladybird umberella – for what purpose i don’t know.  anyway, bonus no sewing.

have lost 6lbs in 10 days on atkins.

saw ds1 today in town, was (formally) pleasant.

stats are up – i take it that people are googling ‘moldy’

take the silence as a good thing , the weather has been nice although its pissing down now – swine flu predicted everywhere, i am up at 2.40 am becuase i don’t want tomorrow to come – another heartless horrible soul destroying day at work

the twins are barely here  - ds has a job – voluntary at his mates shop

dd paper round – both waiting for college

nepotism might help ds get apprenticeship – hope so.

bike ride today with sil – loved it. had lunch then rode to her house then i rode home.

i hate work

all ok on the dh front.

when it started i was whisked away on the jouney of Lillian the Jewish woman who had already seen much trajedy as the book began.  Lillian goes to America after a purge against the jews in her russian home town where her father and mother were killed.  She Dropped her daughter aged just 3 out of the window and told her to hide under the chickens in the chicken coop.  Her own death onlyinteruppted by fate, but the near miss left it’s scar.

Not able to find her daughter and on information given to her by an aunt that Sophie her dauhter was dead, she travells to America. She first becoms a seamstress in a jewish theatre company.

She becomes the faux mistress of the leading man at the theatre named Meyer.  Meyers father owned the theatre and knew Meyer was gay. Lillian then becomes the true mistres to Meyers father until Freida – her cousin from Russia comes to visit. She tells Lillian that her daughter is indeed alivel, that the neighbours rescued her thnking that Lillian had been killed along with the rest of her family.

Lillian then Tries to get back to Russia. Her plan to go from New York to Canada to alaska up the Yukon and eventually to Siberia.

She meets Gumdrop the prostitute, she gets put in prison, she walks along the telegraph route in winter, she rescues three children, she falls in love.

It was a good book – read it!

on the train for 730 – its 2.30 now. i am so screwed. i have half a mind to make some shit up – will ponder.

bought a mirror for £3 at a boot sale – v. nice – it’s now in my hall.  this was as we werw trying to look for the mcfucks  as they got the ump that we didn’t ring them last week when it was pissing down – dh mentioned that it was a fair assumption – but no they went anyway.  so we went over around 10l30 and the mcfucks had fucked off already.  i am in half a mind to ust fucking leave them to come to us and ask them if they have incoming calls only!

we went to cimena with ex to watch drag me to hell – it did eactly what it was supposed to in a classic horror way – it was still shit -even though i nearly wet myself. – good time had by all

went on a bike ride today had a spot of lunch bought some fruit – i did quite well i thought. i navigated roads and even took my hands of the handlebar to signal at one point.  i only got off to go up the hill on the way there and i managed all the way home

not bad for a gilr who couldn’t ride a bike at 12 years old – quite proud of myself.

then went to see blood brothers with ez in town – it was bloody brilliant. – like bloody brilliant.

the stage is really small – we ere spoiled in oldham – we had a glorious theatre – even the pantomimes were lavish in comparison.

i love the naffness of panto – and we used to go quite often – but this town is pants – two theatres – TWO! and both so small its untrue.

so i thought that maybe its becuase its so small – ez and i went to see Fame – we walked out halfway through – we really couldn;t stand it anymore.

so its the size the atmosphere – but i thought i would try again – not expecting much – and i was blown awya. blwon a fucking way/

it was like a quest from never ending story only i wasn’t saving the world, it was rather more important than that old thing.  I Found the perfect pasta jars.  I have scoured blogs and online shops as well as high street ones.

a lot were just try hard. i wanted see through jars. i want to see what pasta i have left and what i have used. but i didn’t want a schmantsy locking mechanism, opaque glass, the word ‘pasta’ on anywhere.  and today i hit the holy grail – and the holy grail had 20% off.

It doesn’t stop there. i wanted an atop the stove kettle.  choice between tin thing from camping shop and fake enamel try hard.

in the same shop as the pasta jars, we found holy grail number too and it to had 20% off.

DH then had to tell the girl that she took 20p off and that actually the total should be a lot lower ( ne named the exact amount) i was much impressed at his assertiveness.

yay.